Thursday, June 19, 2008,
this is not a force update.
i swear i willingly am typing an update bcos i'm willing to.
not bcos i'm afraid that someone would actually smack my head.
this is a warning.
HAHAHHAHA.
nothing much has been happening for the past few days i haven't been updating.
only that i've been busy working my ass off so that i won't think of izzul.
i write him letters & send them to his home so that he would not miss out on any stories or anything that happened on that day.
hopefully, he gets home on time & reads them up.
i can say that the letters i've been writing him are all negative, which means stories that would actually lead to an argument.
i'm not daring.. infact,i'm scared.
i didn't mean to delay a story while izzul was still around(say.. someone tried to ask me for a one-night-stand) but i just didn't want to prolong an issue especially when i'm someone who doesn't like to give in.
i don't want him to leave me & seperate from him in a sad way.
u know what makes us special?
we never give in at first but in the end talk about the problems we face & just laugh our ass off.
that's why i love being his friend & his girlfriend.
even when i fart infront of him & they smell bad.. even when i mess up my food all around my face.. even when i don't have powder on my face.. he still loves me & laugh at the things other guys will find intimidating.
i am starting to miss him....
i'm so ego la.
shouldn't have said that i would never miss him even if he leaves me for a year.
damn sia.. hahaha
to my friend, i thiunk it's true that friends are fading away slowly..
maybe bcos they have their own reasons(?), i don't know.
but what i know is that i have never forgotten u as a friend.
u & me think alike.. i once have a lot of friends but now i'm only left with a few.. maybe four?
one real friend would be my boyfriend bcos he sticks with me wherever & whenever i'm facing problems.
my solution is.. if they never try to find us, we've got to find them; our true friends.
or maybe smtg would wake them up.
when they need help, they'll find us.
so, let's make some trouble.. (hahahaha)
cheer up ok H?
7:47 PM